I've only just realized something very important. I am not who I was, ever. I am not the me I was yesterday, last week, last month, last year, or 3 years ago. I am FINALLY who I want to be, and the validity of that has hit me hard today. I can't make someone see who I am who doesn't know who they are. All I can do is know who I am in my own heart, and continue to be that person for MYSELF. Sure, I was stupid in the past, and I changed myself for people, but doesn't everyone make mistakes when they're 16 and 17? I changed so much for someone who to this very day is the exact same person I once knew.
Now I know I'm mature, evolving, kind, loving, strong-minded, positive and hopeful. I love my tattoo, I love my piercings, I love my hair, I love my body. I am who I want to be and I won't ever allow someone to take that from me again. And from this point on I won't let people allow me to feel hatred for long, and eventually not at all. I am Siobahn, and I know who I am, and no one will ever take it from me. No one. Not some naive childish piece of shit, and no man. I won't compromise myself ever again. Ever.