Find Yourself A New Frontier

'cause life is going, going gone.

I continue to piss my own self off. I keep doing things that in the end, are wrong and futile. I'm aware of the changes I need to make in my life but I seem to be stuck. I'm getting more confused about where I belong, more confused about who I am and what I believe. I was naive to think that I had myself figured out at 18. We never have ourselves figured out. I'm gonna make mistakes, I'm gonna piss myself off, it's a fact of life. I just need to learn from these things. I've brainwashed my own self in some ways. I've talked myself in and out of things. I've been dishonest with myself and closed off to others. I know I repeat myself, I know there are changes I don't make. I'm aware of the wrong that I can make right and the things I can fix. I suspect a few reasons why I don't; I have no energy, I'm emotionally fucked up, I'm lazy, etc.

In the end though, it all comes down to this:
I'm too comfortable. I need to get restless. Now.