All My Bones Are So Tired

I started this draft on the July 16th and I have NO idea where it came from but I think I should finish it.

I never want anyone to be my everything EVER again, until I have children. I am certain that my teenage love affair made me a stupid, stupid girl for a very long time. The idea that this one person was my one and only, my everything, appealed to me so much. I just wanted him, and that was it. Sure, I had great friends, but he was #1. Looking back, I want to slap myself! If I saw 16 year old Siobahn I'd bitch slap her so hard she'd spin twice. I was a dummy, plain and simple. Putting anyone before myself, my family and my girls was stupid. Never again. To be with me at this stage in my life, you have to settle to be mid-priority. And I need to rework my own.

I'm starting to get a lost feeling again. I'm questioning my whole self and it's hard because I thought I knew myself so well. I don't really feel like I know where I belong anymore. My whole life could change this week and I'm sitting calmly waiting for the storm to hit and my life to crash down around me. I am unmoved by so much. So many things have left me numb and careless. I need to get it back, or better yet, I need to move forward.