You Cannot Quit Me So Quickly

Today I started thinking back to the "Steps to Improving Siobahn This Summer". Let's recap:

1. Stop. Thinking.

--Semi-fail. I've stopped thinking so much, but I haven't been meditating at all like I said I would. I still think more than your average, but I figure I'm just a person who can't brush things off so easily.

2. Alone time.

--Big success, big, big success. I spend more time in my bedroom than I ever have in my life. It helps keep the stress of my family to a minimum, and that makes me much happier.

3. Nurture relationships.

--Semi-fail. Some people turned out to not be worth nurturing, so I gave up on that. Others have proven to be great friends, and so I make sure to focus on those friendships.

4. Open up.

--Fail. I don't know when that's gonna happen. I'm back to the point of not wanting anything to do with anyone, due to a few events, and a lack of interesting guys. I'm turning into a vault. It's not good.

5. Gain more independence.

--Semi-fail. My shotty ass job ruined that for me. I should have my license very soon though!


It's time to start trying to turn all of these things into successes. It is absolutely time for me to stop sitting in this puddle of stagnant water, and for me to move forward. I am my own worst enemy. I hold myself back. I need to change. One day at a time I am realizing that I'm luckier than most. I'm realizing what is disposable, and what is valuable. I'm realizing that the right choice has already been made, I just didn't see it until now. Things will fall into place, either that or I'll force them to fit. It's time to move.